Wednesday, July 10, 2024

Day 22 - 10 July 2024

 It has been almost a month. 

I am now on vacation in New York 

Last night as I was watching Moulin Rouge on the Broadway, I cried. All my memories with him popped up. How could he cheated on me emotionally? How could he have been looking at those woman while saying he loves me? How could he have divorced me out of anger? How could he abuses me physically and emotionally? 

Love shouldn’t hurt but this hurts. 

Love is not manipulating, yet he does it all the time. 

Now he is jobless and owes money, i allowed him to stay at my house. Why am i so kind? Haven’t I realised that not everyone deserves kindness?

It hurts. Especially when he uses my things to attract other woman. My car, the perfume I bought, as well as shirt we chose together. 

How much longer do I allow myself the pain?

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