I Wish You Enough

Here is something i read from "Chicken Soup for the Grieving Soul". This is just a small extract and it did touched my heart. I hope it will remind you how to appreciate people around you, for they might leave you before you realize they are leaving...

"I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said, "I love you. I wish you enough". She in turn said, "Daddy, our life together has been more that enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy" They kissed, and she left. He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking , "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have, " I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face-to-face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?"I asked.
"I am old, and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead, and the reality is, the next trip back will be for my funeral," he said.
"When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish you enough. ' May i ask what that means?"
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"When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," he continued and then turning toward me he recited the following:

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough "hellos" to get you through the final "good-bye."

He then began to sob and walked away.
"
_______________________The End______________________

Yea, so thanks for spending your time reading that. Here's something i would like to share, it's my personal experience.

One year back, if I were to go back to JB on a weekend, i will stay over at my grandma's house. Always, on a Sunday afternoon, i will have to take a bus back to Melaka because i have classes on Monday. Then, my grandma will bid me goodbye as my mum drives me away from her house. She will stand at the doorway until i am totally gone from her sight. Then she will slowly cry, not knowing if she might live to see me again. At that time, i didn't know how she was feeling but i was very sad too, i would cry on the bus because I know I will miss her when i'm back in Melaka. She needed me as much as I needed her.
The last time she said goodbye to me, she was lying down on a bed, in the hospital. I was rushing because i might not catch the bus on time. I ran to her side, i said "Ama, i'm going back to Melaka now. You take care." She replied, "You must study hard, don't worry about me. I'll wait for you to come back, then we go eat nice food together." Then I held her hands and said bye.
Never, it never came into my mind that, that will be the last time i will be talking to her. If I knew that would be the last, I would not bother if I missed the bus, I would stay by her side more, and talked to her more. Three days with her in the hospital was not enough.

I guess that is all I want to say.

Appreciation from Me

1. To all my Bio-Instrumentation coursemates:

• My assignment-mate - Yap Ah Bee, thanks for bearing with my pace, and my attitude for wanting everything to be perfect.
• My sisters - Pei Xian, Mei Shan, Gui Yan - Really enjoyed dancing with you gals, and thankful for what you gals did when i was real sad, how we spent the few nights together, though it is only for few nights, but i will not forget it till the day i'm buried.
• My brothers - Kok Phin, Riyit, Ah Bee - ya i know, the four guys in Bio, where you all always include me in.. I'm happy to know you guys. Without the three of you, bio class will be so quiet as we'll have no people to bully :P
• My other sisters - Hsien Yun, Mei Yung, Rachel, Ying Shuang, Yew Hwee, Chui Ling - though you gals are a bit noisy in class, always talking, but that's what makes me miss you gals most. If anyone of you is not around, the class will be noiseless, and it makes me sleepy. Besides, i enjoyed times when we celebrate Birthdays together. Without you gals, bio will be less happening :)
• My Indian brothers and sisters - Kuhan, Geetha, Tharmini, Radhika- did you think i will forget to mention you all? Nope, i didn't. Your names are here :) Though we seldom go out, in fact never, besides MMU corner and Mesra or Highland. But i really enjoyed talking to you people. All of you showed me another view of life and widen my perspective.
• My Malay sisters - Nina, Murni, Yani - haha, come to think of it, we never really went out before. Besides seeing you gals in class, i only remember seeing Nina playing badminton with .... (kantul~~) Neway, i remember the last time we discussed assignment question (EMG), it was a great experience working with you gals. And i really look forward the cakes you gals bake, when wanna give me a treat?
• Huui Fang - hmm.. why are you not in any of the group above? Coz i seldom see you with the rest of them, except for the Malay sisters. so, i decided to write you individually (special :) ) You are the only Chinese gal who do not mix with the rest, it's not that you're weird or different, but i will say that you are different from them. Your view, your aims are different. To be honest, i admire your thinking :) And your passion in Christ. Thanks for the bread from Sarawak and the tour in Sibu :)
• My International brothers - Hendi, Abdullah, Khaldon - I think missed out few other names coz i dun really see them in every class. The three of you are the one whom i see since Alpha. Abdullah, thanks for the currency you gave me, i'm still keeping it :) Hendi for your support in various events i participated and Khaldon for being so jovial in class. All three of you are the reason why i will defend when other people say that the IS do not come here to study. Coz from my experience with the three of you, you guys showed me that you came here to study and you guys really worked hard for it. So, keep up the good work :)

I think that's the end of Bio list, did i miss anyone out??? Please forgive me...

Let's proceed to list No.2,

2. To all my other friends in MMU

• Beh - Though i do not know you long enough, but i'm grateful that you has been there since the day i now you :) Let's continue inspiring each other...
• Kai Siong - Thanks for the trip to KL, it really meant a lot and the conversation we had :)
• Jock - Giving me lifts, it really meant a lot especially when it's so hot :)
• Nilson - You're the only person whom i call "God" in MMU. Enjoyed my microp project with you.
• SamYP - Thank you for your ear :)
• Ting Yii - For formatting my laptop at Zubaidah.
• Li Hao - You taught me a lot, academically and also socializing.
• Chye Siang - Someone who's willing to help with no strings attached.
• Khai Mun - Always appear at the right time to stretch out your helping hand
• Boon Ming - Glad that i have you as my hiking-mate
• Chong Siang - a fren whom i think will never be removed in my life
• Chin Ting - Always there to help me when i'm at my wits end
• Tian Shen - Thanks for your advises, it's still crystal clear in my mind.
• Chris - thanks for constantly fueling my passion in music
• Wei Jie - The last person i turn to and never disappoint me
• Jia Fong - The guy who will keep me going strong
• Azhan - Thanks for always being there to support me.
  

3. You must be cursing me if i go on.. haha... So i think that's my appreciation list. I will have to skip the lecturers, or else the post will be in zillion words.

As conclusion, throughout my four years in MMU, i've gained a lot but at the same time, lost a lot. But at this point of my life, i choose to look at what i've gained and take the opportunity to offer my apology if i did anything wrong and to thank those who helped me. Without your help, (yes, you), i guess i will not be here writing this post :) So, remember, wherever you are, do help when you can, you never know that action of yours might mean a lot to the person.

Lastly, thanks to all and enjoy your final year here~~!!