Jaevyn's 2nd birthday

J's 2 years old! I must first congratulate myself for giving birth to J, then congratulate myself again for taking care of him for 2 years. It is definitely not an easy job as a SAHM but it's worth it. Enough of congratulating myself, i must congratulate J for being the best son for the past 2 years, all the laughter and joy he has brought to us. I never fail to smile everyday despite how tired I've been. The sight of him takes all worries away.

We did not really celebrate his birthday coz he's still young and I don't think the money will be well spent. Wait till he's old enough then will let him celebrate the way he wants. We got him an ice cream cake coz he loves ice cream. It's RM48 for 750 grams. Chocolate flavor, bought at a cake shop near Wonderful, Alma. The ice cream tastes quite nice although not as delicious as Baskin Robbins', but hey, it's 50% cheaper than BRs'.

J posing with candle lit

J clapping hand while we sing him Birthday song

J cutting his cake 

J with mummy

J with daddy

One happy family

J is able to blow out his own candles! Isn't he a big boy now? He cuts his own cake, eat them by himself! 

No words can describe the happiness I feel now. Just by staying together, being there for each other is already heaven to me. If there's anything else I can ask for, it'll be more of these time for me. More of us being together, doing nothing, enjoying each other's company.

This is what FAMILY is. All sacrifices are well worth.

My 1st visit to Private Gynae

Few days back, due to the christmas recital, my stomach hasnt been feeling quite well. I was worried so we decided to make a visit to the gynae to have the baby checked. Just to make sure everything's ok. This will be our 1st visit to the gynae as before this, i have only been visiting the government clinic. Also, at 19 weeks, we should be able to check if this baby is a he or she.

At 2pm, after lunch, I asked if Yuan was busy coz I think I wanna go to the gynae. He said he's not busy now so he could take half day leave to accompany me there. This too will be his first time seeing the baby. We decided to go to Bagan Specialist at Butterworth coz he's lazy to drive into Penang and I had bad impression with KS Wan. Reached there about 2.50pm, registered and waited for Dr. Jason Ong Beng Huat. We were called to go in at bout 3.30pm. That was quite fast as we saw in forum that it takes few hours to get to see him. Perhaps coz it's Monday so fewer people were there to visit him. While taking my BP and Weight, the nurse told me 1st consultation will cost RM150-200. I was like OK (that's quite high) but no choice since we're already here.

Saw him and he was having running nose, i presume he's sick but nvm. He asked about my 1st child, where he was born and was it natural. Then he asked if we have any plan to deliver there. I can only reply no plan. Then he said the baby's gender can be found out today. So i lied down to have my stomach scanned. Here are the 4D's scan....

See his muscular arm!

It's a boy. Another BOY~! I'm glad coz J has a companion. Has a playmate now. They will be 2 years apart so I hope in future their relationship will be close and they will be best friends. There goes my Kathlyn, but nevermind, Jaedyn is also good. He's also God's gift to us. 

After the scan, I asked Dr how much will it cost to deliver there, and he said it'll be about RM3000. That's quite high huh.... I mentioned i do not want to be induced and also no episiotomy. He said he has written them down and will do according to my will. That's relieve to hear that the gynae respect your decision. Perhaps that's the good thing about delivering in Private Hospital, you get to decide what you want. 

Now, I'm really considering if i should give birth in private hospital so i can experience a birth which i choose to have. 

Our year end holiday

Yuan took leave on 26th Dec to accompany us at home. That means we have a LONG weekend! It's 4 days long, coincidently I am also having my teaching Christmas break. Finally we get to spend time together, all 3 of us. We didn't plan what to do, but it doesn't matter coz as long as we're together, it's already enough.

On the eve of Christmas, we went shopping at Giant. I've bought RM200 voucher from groupon last week at RM170 and it's going to expire on 31st December 2014. We took the opportunity to shop for the plastic cabinet to store J's shirt. End up, we spend RM230. Reached home bout 12am, J dozed off in the car.

On 25th, we woke up 10am, ate roti prata then went to buy some hardware item. Went back home as it was drizzling. Cleaned the house. Went out for lunch at ji de chi and back home again. Basically it was a lazy Christmas :)

J can help clean the grill now

26th was a more fruitful day. We went to have dim sum for breakfast. Went to shop for sofa after that. Then, went to Jusco for some shopping. What back home to rest before heading off for char kuey tiaw for dinner. After dinner we went to auto city to have a look at the piano one of the Parent was talking about. We managed to take some photos there. They decorated it for Christmas and it was quite nice.

Testing out sofa

Taken on christmas (we went too early shop not open so went back home)

Taken on 26th, we went back again to shop

27th will be the most fruitful day as we spend the most today. We finally bought a sofa, but the sofa will on be delivered end of January... huhu.... Went out for brunch, had bak kut teh, cia xiang bak kut teh. It was reasonable but not as tasty as the Sei Hwa or Kota Tinggi's XO bak kut teh. Of course price wise, it's a little bit cheaper here. After brunch, we continue our sofa hunt. 

Look how happy he is

We end up buying the beige color one at RM1260. After surveying around Simpang Ampat, Alma, Prai, Perda. All single seat recliner is priced at about RM1400. This one here at Lazio Sofa, Perda is the cheapest and its full leather. Although the leather is bonded leather, but i believe others are also selling the same. This sofa's warranty is slightly shorter than others, the mechanism is 1 year, sofa is 5 years and no warranty for the leather. Other shops have up to 6 years warranty for their sofa and mechanism. Leather wise, it's 50-50, half of them do not offer any warranty, and half has 1-3 years of warranty. 

side view of the sofa we bought

After a long day, we went back home after buying some laksa and goreng pisang for tea break. J was already sleeping in the car when we were on our way back so he continue sleeping after reaching home. That night, we had cake for dinner. I baked yoghurt lemon cupcake and steamed milo cake. Decorated with whipped cream. 

The last day of Yuan's long weekend was spent at home. We were practically exhausted from our marathon shopping... Basically we ran out of budget for the month. haha~ so we stayed home and did nothing. I made Oreo cupcake for tomorrow's breakfast and cooked porridge for dinner. That explains why my stomach is growling already now! time to find some supper for this little Kathlyn in my tummy while J is already fast asleep beside me. 

I'm a blessed Mummy and Wife!

I love you my hubby XOXO

Perspective

Perspective is the way we look at things.

This morning I woke up feeling sad because I dreamt of my grandmother who passed away in 2008. Time flies, it has been 6 years since. Before she pass away, I couldn't imagine life without her but look at me now, still surviving after 6 years. I don't know how I did it but time passes no matter how reluctant u are. So why suddenly "perspective"?

It is few hours after I woke up I thought of what I told my husband few days back. It's about his job as the production engineer. I told him then, that job is a boring job, no sense of accomplishment. Everyday u deal with quantity, how many pcb has been assembled, 100, 1000 or 10000? The only objective in your job is to produce maximum amount of workable pcba in the shortest amount of time. Years will only go by and in the end u realize that ur job has been meaningless. However, today, my perspective on his job changed. It just changed, with nothing to trigger it.

It came to me today that my husband job as the production engineer is like the front line soldier going for battle. He mentioned before that his job is stressful, 1 mistake and he will get the whole batch of scrap pcb. 1 wrong component and the whole batch of pcb is useless. He needs to be highly concentrated in order to not make 1 mistake. Come to think of it, his job is indeed challenging. I mean, how can a front line soldier job be boring? Every morning he wakes up prepare himself to battle. He has to battle with the machine, the operators and his fellow colleagues.

I think it is only today that I realize every job is actually meaningful. It's just how u look at it, ur perspective towards it. I used to look down on people doing sales, I even said that when I went to interview for a sales engineer post. I couldn't accept that people who does that actually get paid more than people who do the technical stuffs. Well, I guess my perspective will change. Honestly speaking,  perhaps I don't have any experience with sales, i still can't figure how their job match their pay.

Another perspective that I suddenly thought of, (well this thing actually got me started thinking on other things) is about being a music teacher. I have been teaching with my own perspective and own expectation on students. Have i ever look at it from the students' perspective? Why must I stereotype them? Thinking that they don't practice is purely due to their laziness just because that was my reason? I think a course should be given on "Perspective". I hope I will be able to do it one fine day. Just keep this simple idea in my blog so I don't forget it.

It's time for a New Year Resolution \@@/

Time flies... it has been 1 year since i am a lawfully wedded wife... hehe... Looking back at what i've accomplished last year....

1. Passed Grade 8 theory with distinction

2. Took ATCL piano performance

3. Resigned and be a full time music teacher

You might not think of it as an accomplishment but for me, they are. I finally get to work at my own time - I get to decide what time to go to work, what time to finish work. I get to decide my salary... It feels real good to be on my own but it's more stressful than to work with other people. Well, there's always two sides to a coin. I guess i'm able to make do with it...

So, for 2012... I plan to....

1. Lose weight >.< (it has always been my resolution coz i'm always unable to achieve it)

2. Pass AMusTCL

3. Sit for LTCL

i guess, that this year resolution is pretty much the same as last year's... at least it's a good thing. I'm not that fickle minded anymore. Wishing everyone a Happy New Year!!!

Pissed with Maxis

I know i've been missing lately... ever since i resigned, that's coz i'm adapting to my new life + no internet access @ home. However, i'm blogging today coz i'm really pissed off with Maxis.

Here goes the story,

I've subscribed to maxis data plan coz it comes with the contract for HTC Wildfire. On 19th Sept 2pm, i called in maxis center to ask when my contract ends coz i would like to unsubscribe to the data plan. Shahril - the PIC told me it ends on 15 Sept and i'm not bound to any contract anymore. So i told him i would like to unsubscribe to my internet data plan. He gladly unsubscribed it for me. One day later, my phone was barred. My unbilled amount is RM302++.... I was shocked. Not knowing what happen, i called Maxis customer service again, this time an Indian man attended to my call. Subra, if i'm not mistaken. He told me he is unable to check my bill but he could help unbar my call until my bill is ready. I waited to 1 day, but my phone is still being barred. On 21st Sept, I called them again. A gal name Preme attended to my call. The same answer was given, i have to wait for my bill to be ready before anything can be done. This time i told her to unbar me coz i've made partial payment to Maxis. She unbarred me 30 minutes later.

The worst part happens when i receive my bill. Maxis charge my internet data usage for RM280+++. I called them and the customer service told me i am charged so because of usage after 19th Sept - when i first call them to unsubscribe to my internet data plan. I told her i did not use the mobile internet after calling the center and she told me that i have to request for itemised bill before any action can be taken. So now, i will have to pay an extra RM5 for the bill to check on what actually happen to have caused such huge amount charged on to me.

All in all, no one is here to aid consumer and also to educate them on their rights. Today, i am being misbilled of RM250++, if I do not take action about it, when will this situation ends? Who will stand up for consumers? What can we do?

Just feeling helpless....

Last Day @ WorK

Yet another Last day @ work....


two months have passes by... fast? Not really but not too slow either. I have been contemplating with myself this two months, sometimes regretting my decision but sometimes, can't wait for this day to come. It's finally here - 3rd June 2011....

The end of something marks the beginning of something else. I hope I will be able to embark my future journey with happiness + hope. A new beginning that will enable me to find myself, that will enable me to find a purpose in life, a new beginning that permits more time for my family + friends.

As for the end of the previous journey, I'm really glad to be able to meet some good colleagues cum friends. Ppl who taught me, who bullied me, who joked with me, who shared their experience with me. Being at work is not easy - but ppl will grow only when there are hiccups in life.

it's the ups and downs in life that made one complete

Relieved

I've finally submitted the letter. That took a lot of courage coz it definitely means i will no longer have a stable income. But who-the-heck gives a damn bout it. $ is important but youth and time is more important than than. I refuse to sell my youth to $, hence i choose to resign and pursue my dream. Being freelance takes a lot of courage too, knowing that income is not stable and projects might not come continuously but at least, you can choose which project to take and set your own standard of dealing with things. I've realised, I'm not $ minded but $ conscious. I want to earn just enough to get by and do what i love to do. After all, life's short, it might just pass you by in a blink of an eye. Why get yourself commited and hopeless? I remember Mr. Thum said, fly like an albatross, not a sparrow. I wish to be free - to lead the life i want, to spend the time with whoever i want. Time should not be bought coz it is priceless....

Two quotes i find interesting and true...

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back.”

“Find something you love to do and you'll never have to work a day in your life”

Both by Harvey Mackay. So, there are people who thinks like me - i'm not an outcast~~

New cleanser set

I've received my new cleanser set from my colleague today! This also mark the first product i bought from Amway. To be honest, I never like direct sales and think it's not a proper way to generate income but I can't deprive its product. Hence, I am giving Artistry cleanser a try. Hope that the Artistry Essentials Hydrating System will not kill my final dime of faith in Direct Sales. This set's retail price is RM 288, my colleague gave me another 10% discount. :) Here are pictures of my new cleanser set - pray that it'll work our for my skin coz the previous product i used, Origins (brightening) does not suit my skin, causing irritations and redness...

Mari Kita Membaca Campaign

Recently, been kinda confused. Of what I really love doing and how to live in reality. Been surfing the net, doin bits of work, practising a lot. Happen to look into my bookmarks and found the education malaysia blog. Their recent post is about this campaign - Mari Kita Membaca. This campaign basically raise funds to send books to orang asli village. Here's a short introduction about this campaign from the blog :

We started just a few months ago and in a nutshell, we fundraise to send
books to orang asli villages which already have community learning centers. We
screen and select villages that we think will benefit the most out of getting
the books and after consultation with local teachers, we help them buy the books
that would assist them in their curriculum. It's not a very big operation, but
we do what we can. We have a pretty quick turnover of our cash, and 100% of it
goes towards buying the books and any delivery expenses.

So, I've posted bout World Vision on adopting a child, this time around i would love to share this meningful cause to readers out there. For more info, visit their site here.

Come to think of it, I yearn to be volunteers - though I will not get a luxurious life but at least my life will be a purposeful one. Worth pondering~

2 Consecutive Rejections in 2 years

I've graduated in 2009, since then, I've received 2 rejections from 2 of my applications. 1st was in 2010, when i applied for CEMACUBE scholarship - to be honest, until now i do not know the reason i was rejected. 2nd was last Monday by the Ministry of Education. That too, I do not know the reason for rejection.

What does it imply? What is it that God wants me to do? If God has His plan laid out, does it mean that I'm no longer fitted to be in the Education industry. Or He has his other plans for me... Whatever it is, one thing for sure - my confidence level has dropped since then.

Is my husband aware of it? Is he being supportive enough? I guess he does, but he don't really understand why I simply can't be who I am now. Why am I yearning for more. Actually, me neither...

KPLI - Result Released

Finally... the days of waiting are over.

Somehow, it's still not really officially over - we're still left with few hours, presuming those ppl at KPM (Ministry of Education) are going to upload the list by 5pm.

They announced on their site that the result will be released on the 17th January 2011 but no specific time were given. According to forumers from cari, KPM normally uploads the result by 9am or 12pm. But until now, 3.40pm - there's still no news.

I'm getting freaked out. The process of waiting is indeed distress, gruesome, excited, stomach twisting - I'm not sure if there's such word. Nevertheless, i've read on "The monk who sold his Ferrari" that we should enjoy the process, regardless what it takes us to. "Happiness is a journey, not a destination" Isn't that book inspirational?

Why can't they just get the freaking list published~~!!! :P

Finally... it's out - for real. The link is here: http://kpli.moe.gov.my/twr11/index.cfm . Unfortunately, I didn't get it. They rejected my application. Yet another rejection. I've been rejected twice since I've graduated. When will I be able to get what I want - or I do not want enough?

Somehow - I'm grateful that I've been saved from the misery of waiting for something. Made me feel like vomitting. In a way, it's good too. It means I'm able to get pregnant and have Dragon baby next year!

We're all living in a helpless world

When was the last time you met with an unfortunate event?

My worst experience was this morning. Yesterday evening I received a call from my mum saying that someone has broke into her house while she was not at home. It seems the thieves took all valuable they could find. PC, LCD monitor, jewelery, coins, cash, camcorder, golf bag, shoes, and pots of bonsai! We've calculated, and there weren't much losses. Approximately RM4000.00. The unfortunate part is that we did not realise there's one more very important thing missing during that break in.

The next morning as i woke up, got ready for work - I realise my phone had miss call from my aunt. I called back. Guess what. My mum's car is missing - from her house with the autogate wide open. GOSH. The important thing that was missing and we didn't realise was her car's spare key.

Apparently, the thieves took her spare key and autogate's key. They came back to her house while they were asleep and drove the car away. Mum did not hear her car engine start - most probably they pushed it out and started engine when the car is out from the house's compound.

Immediately my mum went to lodge a police report. Actually, right after her house was broken into, she has called the police and asked if they could come over to have a look. They replied that they will not come to the crime scene unless someone made a police report at the police station. So, my mum was asked to make a trip to the station before they could do anything. My mum was reluctant to go because she was traumatised and didn't want to leave home. I too agreed with her decision as there was nothing much the police could do and my mum needed time to be at home.

After the car was stolen, she went to lodge a report. She told the police what happened, but turned out the report was not written the way it was spoken but my mum didn't bother correcting them because she was simply too sad and shocked. 3 hours later, an officer came to her house. took pictures - when the stuffs has been arranged back to the way it was. Officer blamed my mum for not making a police report earlier.

Then, here I am today, after bringing my mum to my aunt's house to borrow a car. I feel so helpless. What can we do when things are stolen? rely on police to retrieve them back? it took them 3 hours to come to the crime scene. Not to mention they didn't write the report as it was told. One inspector even asked my mum to drop by the Central police station to lodge another report. When my mum asked him why can't she do it today, he replied - he has another case elsewhere. So he can only deal with this case tomorrow.

By tomorrow, everything will be history. Nothing can be retrieved. Hopeless. All this while, we have been a law abiding citizen. We lived by rules, made a proper living. What do we get? Injustice, unfair, and distress. Then why on earth are we still living here? What's the point of living your life anymore when in the end, you will still end up being helpless.

ROM - 1.1.11

Registry of Marriage? Yes... unbelievable but true - I got engaged on the 1st January 2011, 11am~!

Pics to share:

Contract of Marriage
Our pledge for eternal love

My dad, his mum and the registrar officer

Cytron'ians

MMU'ians

Alvin + Ah Bao

Thanks to those who came for my ROM, we really appreciate your effort and your wishes. We loved those gifts we received. But most of all, we loved your company. without all of you, our ROM will not be as memorable as it is now. Hope all of you had a wonderful time too! Love ya all~~

PS: Thanks Eriko + Nicole for being such good make up artist + photographer!

Life...

Yes, despite all the complaining going on. Life goes on.

One's Life story usually goes like this;

Preface:
This chapter portrays how you started your life, from your mum's womb - the matrix, into the world. Perhaps, one might talk about how your mum took care of you while you were in it.

PART 1: The first dozen year - Carefree Life
Chapter 1: Awakening.
Here comes the the new born. As white as a piece or paper. So pure, so innocent. Chapter 1 depicts your life as a baby, until the day you start to turn into a mischievous little angel.

Chapter 2: The Toddler.
Yes, this is the time when you start input all you have in your surroundings. Everything seems to be new to you. You are excited, curious to learn everything and anything you can find around you. You start destroying everything you have in hand yet you are still lovable.

Chapter 3: Pre Schooler.
Finally, you got the chance to really learn the proper way. You start going to school, start learning how to speak correctly, count precisely - not that precise though, or even play some instrument. Me? I got to know piano when i was 5. Have been loving it since :)

Chapter 4: Novice.
Welcome to primary school and start spending the first 6 years of preliminary education. You will be exposed to more people, more input, and of course more conflicts in life. You might even start shaping your future now. For me, I thought I would either be a pianist or an athelete. Never thought that I could be the studious type.

PART 2: The next dozen of year - Steering Life
Chapter 5: Intermediate.
How was the first 6 years of your student life? Enjoyable? Can't bear to leave it? Worry not, you will soon come to complete the next 6 years of your student life. In this intermediate stage, all I had was visions and dreams. I dreamt of me playing piano in a concert. I dreamt of me going into the Olympics. I dreamt of being a Doctor as well as a Lawyer. Hmm.. endless sweet dreams. Nevertheless, there are also many life issues faced during this 6 years of secondary school. Towards the end of the 5th year, I hated who I am and can't wait to be an independant adult. This is also the rebellious period of my life.

Chapter 6: Advance.
My dad told me, in order to survive in future, you need to go through another few years studying. Well, I took a heed on his advise, moved on for tertiery education. Guess what, I took up a course which I would never imagine myself doing. Engineering. Perhaps it suited my character, always seeking challenges. Engineering is indeed about challange, solving endless problems. Finally, I graduated.

PART 3: 3rd dozen - Settling Life
Chapter 7: Independance.
What does it feel when you are able to be on your own? I though it would be happy, but i was wrong. It was stress. To be on your own simply means: you have to do everything by yourself and no one will be covering your ass anymore. I moved on - not long though...

Chapter 8: Union.
Once you are independant, you will start feeling helpless - mayb not all but me - for sure. As mentioned earlier, it's time to settle down your life. To continue the rest of the journey.

This is what i can jot down as I'm here at chapter 8. The rest will be updated accordingly if time permits. 1st January 2011 will mark the start of Chapter 8. I hope those who were in my life story to be able to celebrate the start of Chapter 8 with me. Let's reminisce the previous chapters of life...

PART 4: Expansion

Continue on 8/12/2014
Chapter 9: Fruit of Love
Marriage has been fun, no I don't mean it's not fun now, but it's time to move on. Time to add a new family member to the small family which only had two members. Our fruit of love was born on 3rd February 2013. Since then, my life has been fast paced. Watching him growing up in the speed of lightning. Everything just happen so fast. Moving on, we decided to have another fruit added to this tree. Our 2nd fruit of love was born May 2015.

Chapter 10: Maturing the fruits
Bearing fruit was not easy but taking care of them, making sure they grow healthily is way harder. Who would have though I would spend part 4 of my life staying at home looking after them.

MALAYSIA

What is the first thing that comes into your mind when u hear the word Malaysia? For me, it's

1 Malaysia, Rakyat Didahulukan, Pencapaian Diutamakan

I'm so "thankful" that I'm living in this country, a country where

1. I have to pay 3% interest for study loan - and need lengthy procedure to change the 3% to 1%
2. My batch of students are being discriminated as those who applied for PTPTN after July 2005 and graduated b4 2010 is unable to convert their loan to scholarship despite graduating with first class honours. FYI, only those who applied after July 2005 and graduated b4 2010 are affected. Why? Is it because those students are not Malaysian? They are not to be "didahulukan"? Or because their "Pencapaian" is not "diutamakan"? Talk about the "1" concept. Does it mean those students are not within the "1"?
3. Another case is for MOE. Thanks for their transparency in selecting GSTT. How many non-Malays are actually employed as GSTT? Why hasn't anyone ask MOE to publish those data? Are those data unavailable or those data are simply undisclosable?
4. Recently, I have been facing problems with Maxis. I know that Maxis is a NGO, so I should not put the blame on government. But then again, what happens to consumer rights organization? Aren't they supposed to be aided by the government to help us, users who are being jeapordised by those conglomerates? We have no channels to turn to. Are we suppose to turn to politicians everytime we face this kinda problems? If that's the case, I suppose those politicians or representatives will find that 24 hours a day is no longer sufficient.
5. Lastly, Insurance agents. It is also during these few months, I met with an incident where I cancelled my policy and was suppose to get some money back from the company. I cancelled it in late February and was told to wait for the cheque to be sent to my company (coz that's the address i gave them). I waited, and, waited. I called her in April, and July. The only response is to WAIT. I waited patiently until December. Supposing the lifetime of a cheque is 6 months, it will be expired even if i receive it now. I called the headquarter, bypass my agent. Guess what, the HQ says that the cheque has been sent out to their branch at Muar and is not invalid as it has expired. So, I will have to wait for another few months before getting my money back. Luckily it was only few hundreds, imagine if i was few hundred thousands, who can i ask for for those interest i could've earned. Insurance company? Insurance agent? Once again, no channel to complain.

Seriously, I'm starting to feel tired. Tired of Malaysia's policy. Of Malaysian's attitude. Of Malaysia's government. I love Malaysia, that was why I decided to work here instead of going abroad. Look at what has happened to me. If there's anyone to blame, I should blame on me for being patriotism.

Happy Birthday Grandma!!!

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthyday to AMA,
Happy Birthday to you...

Dear Ama,

If only you were around, I will be on leave today, I will cook you red egg + mi sua, buy you a low sugar cake and bring you to hypermarkets for you to do your shopping

If only you were around, I will stay with you yesterday night, to chat with you before you sleep, to drink the milo you made for me before i sleep

If only you were around, I will be the most filial grandchild you have, to bring you for check-ups, to buy you medicine you need so you don't have to walk those extra miles

If only you were around, I will make sure your days which are numbered will be meningful, your past sufferings will be worthwhile and every sacrifices you made be priceless


I am sorry to not be able to do all those when you were around. Ever since the day you went away, I've been living my life with regrets, with shadows from the past, with things I didn't do and will never be able to do.

The grieving period, people say can be as short as 1 month but it too can be as long as a lifetime. I grieve because you meant a lot to me, I am here today, for you gave me the courage, you were a good exampler, you showed me a glimpse of my future. Thank you and you will always be remembered even after generations. This will be the greatest achievement in your life.

HaPPY 81 years old, AMA!

New Watch

My dear bought me a new watch~!

suitable for me to teach my students...

coz it is not fragile, not auntie'ish, not very expensive~! doesnt mean i can break it though~~

Here it goes:

CASIO POPTONE LCF-20-9




It's a kinda cool watch, since today's my 1st day using it, i have not much comment. Let's see how it's gonna be in time to come...

thanks DEAR~!

gonna give it another shot

A second chance is often a must - i believe..

After quitting from my previous engineering job - i thought i would never go back into that boring and mundane life.. but then again, what else to do but that? I'm trained for 4 years for that. what else do i know but that? Tomorrow, will mark another new start of my career. after hesitating for 1 year, accomplishing nothing in a year, it's time to remend what i've done and what i've lost.

lucky to have a supporting lover with me. I'm sure he'll help with my work when i bump into obstacles..

So, wish me all the best for my new job as a Design Engineer - again~!

I wanna be an engineer who is an engineer

What does the statement above implies?

that I am still as confused as i used to?

I'm outspoken, I can make stone to gold just be describing it. But, I first must believe in it. I have an extraordinary gift, a gift of tongue. I excel in presentations, I crap well, even if my results ain't that well..

This is also something which makes me dislike myself... I talk until I myself do not know what's the truth and what's not. I didn't have the intention to lie, but lie just pop out of nowhere~

Can i say that i hate myself yet i love myself for this gift? How am I able to make use of this gift?