I wanna be an engineer who is an engineer

What does the statement above implies?

that I am still as confused as i used to?

I'm outspoken, I can make stone to gold just be describing it. But, I first must believe in it. I have an extraordinary gift, a gift of tongue. I excel in presentations, I crap well, even if my results ain't that well..

This is also something which makes me dislike myself... I talk until I myself do not know what's the truth and what's not. I didn't have the intention to lie, but lie just pop out of nowhere~

Can i say that i hate myself yet i love myself for this gift? How am I able to make use of this gift?

Waves

Sometimes I feel my life is like a wave... but this wave is continuously striking the sand... My happiness is short-lived, same as my sadness... they locked one another, they bind to each other - when will i get to swim to the middle part of the ocean. But then again, will I get used to peaceful life if i ever get to swim to it?

Tired yet exciting + unpredictable - that's what keeps Diaane going strong.

Yuan, thanks for being the port i can always go back to when i'm tired of swimming...

Fly like an albatross, not a sparrow

Quoted from Mr. Thum "When you want to fly, first of all, you need to be able to withstand crashes. Next, be an albatross, not a sparrow"..

I asked him why.. he said.. "when one decides one's dream is to fly, then should one's final goal to be soaring above the waves in the open ocean or gliding among crops in a paddy plantation?"

I have dreams.. huge dreams.. but the problem is if those dreams are able to be reality. Or i should do what Yuan told me, alter your dreams accordingly. Do not persist into something you know you cannot achieve. Have I really decided to give up on my dream? If not, are you willing to walk my dream with me, Yuan?

Being in Love

Hmm...

Not been updating my blog coz busy pat tuo...

I noe it's not an excuse, but it's a REASON~!

Feel weird, seems like you have to start living with someone besides you, with someone in your mind, with someone who cares for you. It's good to not feel alone, but for someone like me, who has been alone for so long... It's kinda weird.. but i'm adapting to it.

Is this what life is all about? The cycle that we can not escape from? What's left is to make the best out of this routine? If that's the case, does it matter anymore what you choose to do and who you choose to be with? Coz in the end, it's all bout working hard towards a happier life.

Better not to think too much, just love and let love just like how we live and let live~